I’m tired. You know? It’s that time of the day when you just get tired, emotionally, physically, mentally. And then you get bummed out because things are different from the way they’re supposed to be. And you say, “It’s ok.” And then you come up with some kind of crazy “exception” to the rule. Like, for example. People, after dating for less than 6 months, say that it’s okay. They’re marriage will work out, because their neighbors Max and Sue met in Europe and dated for a week and then got married and they’re having their 50th anniversary on Saturday. But in reality, most people who do not date for over 2 years before marriage have a much better chance, statistically, getting a divorce. The other day I saw this old guy, maybe 45 give or take, who was playing in an old coffee shop. And he was good. Really good. And I talked to him for a while and he was talking about someday how he’s gonna get his big break. And I thought to myself, “Poor guy. He’s nuts.” And then as I was leaving I thought to myself, “Is that going to be me?” In this world today, how much of things is hard work and determination and how much is luck? Luck. Sounds kinda like a spiritual being or like a St. Patrick’s day card. And do I want to spend my whole life waiting on a St. Patrick’s card. Or working really hard for nothing. I went to a wedding today. My friends from high school. Am I SUPPOSED to be married right now? I don’t even know what selfless love is yet. And my friend just had her second kid. And then when they talk to me they have such a nonchalant somewhat condescending look on their face when they ask, “How’s the music going?” But instead it’s like they’re saying, “Are you really still doing that?” You guys are verging 30 soon. Isn’t 30 the new 20? And at the end of the day some dipshit out of some western town could come up to me and say stop whining. Children are starving in India. Well. You can’t always bank your emotions and problems on something happening across the world. Nothing would ever get done. And I feel like nothing comes to me when I’m writing. I sit down with a guitar and sit there for hours. Grab a drink, roll up my sleeves, make some tea, kick up my feet. Come on. I have my guitar in hand. I have a paper, a pen, a recorder waiting for “thee” song. But nothing comes. And then that song crawls up on me when I’m driving down the freeway at 75 miles an hour. Or when I’m stuck in a yoga class, sweating, and the teacher gets mad when anyone leaves the room. Or I’m at that wedding reception. Or on a date. And I think…song, damn you, why can’t you come later. I’m busy now. And you just screw me over anyway. I can’t take notes now. Leave me alone. But it doesn’t leave me alone and I end up leaving anyway and writing it down somewhere or taking mental note as strongly as I can even though I forget things almost all the time anyway. Like Birthdays. Mother’s day. Ex-boyfriends Birthdays (they’re so sensitive about that) or that I don’t have any toilet paper at home at the moment and the cheap kind hurts your skin. Then it’s just rashes and no song anyway. I’m cheap with things that matter, like good toilet paper or a taxi ride when walking pulling a huge suitcase for 2 hours is a hassle. But I’m expensive with things that don’t matter. High heels. They bruise my feet. I paid 100$ for high heels that cut me. And then they get blood all over my socks, and I’m thinking…why didn’t I just get the toilet paper that cost 5 dollars instead of 99 cents. Because I can’t think straight when the songs are floating around. Can’t do it. D.
October 2010
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Nov 09 - Salt Lake City, UT - Avalon Theater - http://tinyurl.com/29ab455
Nov 12 - Modesto, CA - Modesto Virtual -
Nov 13 – Bakersfield, CA – Jerry’s (w/The Rocket Summer) -http://tinyurl.com/27wqgka
Nov 14 - Hermosa Beach, CA - Saint Rocke - http://tinyurl.com/2ak9292
Nov 15 - San Diego, CA - Epicentre - http://tinyurl.com/2f9wzw2
Nov 16 - Scottsdale, AZ - Martini Ranch - http://tinyurl.com/2dg7u3f
Nov 18 - San Antonio, TX - White Rabbit - http://tinyurl.com/2bz84ml
Nov 19 - Woodlands, TX - Shadowplay Lounge - http://tinyurl.com/2ef3jbe
Nov 20 - Denton, TX - Hailey’s - http://tinyurl.com/2fbdv4z
Nov 21 - Metarie, LA - The High Ground - http://tinyurl.com/27br6kl
Nov 23 - Orlando, FL - The Social - http://tinyurl.com/2ahwpck
Nov 24 - Douglasville, GA - The 7 Venue - http://tinyurl.com/2a7ps4a
Nov 26 - Hoboken, NJ - Maxwell’s - http://tinyurl.com/27jkh8d
Nov 27 - Philadelphia, PA - Barbary - http://tinyurl.com/2339t62
Nov 28 - New York, NY - Webster Hall - http://tinyurl.com/26jpr9u
Nov 30 - Pontiac, MI - The Crofoot -http://tinyurl.com/35jqccy
Dec 01 - Columbus, OH - The Basement - http://tinyurl.com/28up5xg
Dec 02 - Chicago, IL - Beat Kitchen - http://tinyurl.com/2a8flcz
Dec 03 - DeKalb, IL - House Cafe - http://tinyurl.com/2f3sopl
Dec 04 - Minneapolis, MN - Triple Rock Social Club -http://tinyurl.com/28vey5p
Dec 05 - Des Moines, IA - The Vaudeville Mews - http://tinyurl.com/2clm8wd
Dec 07 – Denver, CO – Soiled Dove - http://tinyurl.com/26o6a2v
“Its Always Stormy In Tillamook” will be available nov 2nd. Here is a preview.
“Its Always Stormy In Tillamook” will be available nov 2nd. Here is a preview.
